Comfort

Andy's last post was very comforting. At times I feel a bit guilty, because if I weren't in London, this wouldn't be so difficult. Then again, I'm not really financially capable of coming home right away. But we won't get into that now.

He had said to me how his relationship with God had changed as a result of meeting me, and although it was very nice to hear, I wasn't sure exactly what he meant. Yesterday, I had my revelation.

All my life I've wanted to get married. I remember praying for it since I was very young. I loved Psalms 37:4, because it promised that he would give me the desires of my heart, and that is the main one. So in the past few years, when I felt like I was just waiting, waiting and waiting, I wondered when God was going to make good on his promise. I did trust him, but at the same time, I was getting quite impatient.

And then I met Andy. It's the first time in my life when I can really point to something (someone) and say 'that's my answered prayer'. It makes my trust and faith in the Lord so much stronger, because there is solid evidence that he heard me, had someone in mind and brought it out at the perfect time. Of course, His plans were 100x better than I could ever have imagined or deserved.

Of course, that all gets very complicated when you think of me staying in London, which is why Andy's last post was so comforting. I was so convinced in the first couple weeks that he would find it much more convenient to just date someone who is actually in the same state than it would be to have to make do with skype dates on the weekends. I'm very happy he is willing to wait.

I know there are a few different answers on the poll to your right. This next week I have an interview with a recruitment agency (which probably won't amount to anything immediately) and then an interview at a college. When I turned in the application, I was reasonably sure I would be called back for an interview, so now I hope I do well at the interview. This is a one year contract, so would terminate in November of next year.

I'm really trying to listen hard to what God wants me to do on this one. I over-analyse things a lot (as you may have guessed) so sometimes 'giving it up to God' is not the easiest thing for me to do. Maybe there is no right or wrong, as Sarah said, it's between better and best.

Things will get interesting in the next few weeks. Your prayers are much appreciated.