I really do look at the world in a different way. I look at situations as scenarios that Emily and I could experience together. I day dream what it would be if I had Emily to go a do something with after I got done doing what I was doing. When I see something romantic, either in real life or video, I know what that really is like. Maybe it was because the hugging, holding of hands, and kissing was so intense for me. Or maybe it was the sheer fact that physically being with Emily has given me a constant in my life that forces me to look at my world by pivoting from that location.
To make my blog posts more interactive, I've decided to start adding tangent videos. They will usually be around 1-2 minutes long that add to what I am saying in a way that can only be spoken and not written. In other words it will be a hybrid of a blog and a vlog. Here is the first:
(Technical Difficulties, I have to upload these videos on Youtube because blogger is being difficult)
With that said I progress to my next flow of thought which is what I kind of got around to telling Emily in my last email to her. Basically, we are going to fight off any chance of leading a half life. What a "half-life" means is having our daily lives in our respective cities working and then in our spare time glued to a computer screen eeking out whatlittle communication we can with each other. Emily only has 5 more weeks in one of the most amazing cities in the world and I want her to enjoy. On the other side of the coin I am here in AZ with a full-time job as well - not to mention way behind in online course work because of foot surgery and strep throat! Although it pains me to say this, maybe long distance relationships aren't as great as what I have painted them to be.
In fact, lengthy extended periods of separation are not good for any relationship, including our relationship with God. Sure different couples can have more stamina in terms of separation than others. But there comes a point when the distance itself creates a void that can't be filled. I can't take care of Emily when she is sick and vice versa. She can't hug me whenever she feels like it. We can't go to each other for meaningful comfort when we've had a bad day. To be down right honest; a long distance relationship has the potential to be toxic. If not watched carefully, than a half life begins. And not just a half life in the sense of a divided life between work and the computer. But also a half-life in that the quality of life is also diminished. I don't want that toxicity for Emily and I.
What do I mean by that? Second Tangent Video:
Whoa there, calm down. I don't mean: I don't want a long distance relationship with Emily. What I mean is I don't want to lead a half-life relationship with Emily. I don't want that element of toxicity to diminish the quality or our relationship and our lives. I love Emily too much for that.
So with that said you should pick-up that our future blog posts will be coming from a pure and refined long distance relationship. Facebook hit-and-run posts = yes. Emails = yes. Blog & Vlog = yes. But no chat and no Skype (the main ones).
Please pray for us as we dominate some Fukagawa Toxicity.
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